I am a twenty somethiing year old woman who has high hopes and ambitions. I am blessed with the ability to come up with brilliant business ideas but get stuck at seeing them through so they lay stagnant and bare. I do this, in every aspect of my life, like filling in an application at a law firm but not sending it through, or talking about how i am going to quit smoking because I dont want to be a smoker, but I continue to smoke like a chimney.

I know what you are thinkng right now. You're thinkin im pathetic since I know what my problems are and yet i choose not to change them. They say one cannot change what they dont acknowledge, and I type this having fully acknowledged my weaknesses however I cannot change them, or atleast dont know how. You know whats funny though? I can motivate and encourage anyone to be the best person they can be and change! This is one of my strengths (remember the saying "those that cant, teach"?). Anyway there is no real point to this article except that instead of just being bluntly honest with myself, thought I should reveal myself to you, so you can know the truth.

Mind you, if you bumped into me on the street you would not believe that I describe myself this way, because to the outside world, I am confident, strong, stable, interesting, got my ducks in a row and know where im going.

In the meantime the truth is my ducks are actually scattered, I am not as stable as most would believe in fact I lost my marbles a long time ago.